The Only Prescription Was To Fade Away

I’m really having mixed feeling about dating again. I don’t want to fall into that category of dating someone, just to date someone. I want to date someone who blows my mind. This is really making me rethink the doctor. Yeah, he has status quo, yeah- he’s cute, but he has 3 MAJOR MORAL deal breakers. What was I thinking? I mean I guess I didn’t know that much about him before I went on a date with him…

Yeah. I’m done.

What could these deal breakers be?

1. Does testing on animals for a living
a. Which when he told me, I gasped & told him that it was SICK.
2. Doesn’t believe in God or a higher power at all.
3. Does a LOT of FREAKY drugs.

When you put it all out there, how could you really WANT to go out with him again? So I think I am just going to try to fade off into the horizon.

So after a few days of not texting for a bit, I get this email:

Hey KK

I apologize for not being so good about keeping in touch with you this past week. I wanted you to know that I have started to date a close friend of mine. It is something that had crossed my mind before but I never expected it to actually happen. It was not my intention to mislead you in any way and I apologize for having done so.

I am sorry to have messed this up. It was very nice to meet you and perhaps someday if I see you around town we can hang out (assuming you would still want to talk to me at that point). Good luck with everything and take care.

Doctor


So I guess he was kind of blowing me off too. At least if she’s a friend she knows about the animal testing. Good Luck Doctor & I’ll be at the next protest for sure, see you there!!

Two dates in one weekend, now I am more confused than ever.

Friday I went to Shortstop’s softball game. I had a nice time, once I figured out I was sitting on the wrong side of the field. It was kind of funny, because his hot friend noticed I was there before Shortstop did…
It was fun though. We drank a few beers and headed over to his best friend’s house.
Once Shortstop & I were in the car alone together, the weird comments started happening. He started saying that I was better than he was, and he isn’t rich so that’s not what I should expect of him. I tried to absorb these comments & then talk to him about what he was thinking. He had no interest in talking about it & then we were at his friend’s house so the conversation naturally ended. He makes a comment when we are walking up to the house, that he can buy his own house, right now if he wanted to- but helping out his brother is more important. (They live together).

I’m really not sure where I dropped the bomb that I was some sort of princess. It really throws me off. I mean I am so real with him & on such “best behavior” it’s sick.

We went on with the evening & end up having a super fun time. So much fun in fact, that I totally forget about the weird things that he said earlier. We are having a bonfire, he’s throwing his arm around me, I’m laughing with his brother, it was just super fun.

Then he walks me to my car to say good night & gets all weird AGAIN! Using hand signals to show me how I am up here & shortstop is down there. I am so above him. WHAT? Then he asks me if I want him to come over. HA HA HA. NOPE. I don’t want to deal with you after acting like that. I need to process & I leave feeling very strange.

So Saturday comes around & I am really not too excited to hang out with the Doctor. I’m just thinking that it will be kind of fun and I am so not into it, mostly because of shortstop. (I guess I am just a sucker for drama).
Doctor meets me at 7 and we have far too many beers, laugh, get some dinner, talk about everything. Time is flying. All of a sudden, out of nowhere, I get this friendly punch in the arm & freeze. Too nervous to turn around, I hear the friendly voice of one of my very favorite guy friends. My friend starts eyeing up my situation, surely he’s noticed I’m drunk & out with someone I have never talked about before. Like a good friend, or purely out of curiosity, he sticks around a bit & talks to us. My friend & the Doctor actually hit it off. Which makes me feel pretty good. I mean you want your friends to like your doctor for more than just being your doctor. At some point in the evening, the doctor & I are holding hands across the table. He drops a few bombs that I really don’t like to hear, but I push them to the back of my head. They are big things that end up circling in my head even days later. We decide to go to another bar. Why not right? So we went to this crappy hole in the wall bar, and basically walked around & sobered up a bit. After all the bars closed, he walked me to my car & we made out for what felt like a happy eternity. I’m can’t lie to you, he’s not the best kisser in the world. It almost seemed like he was trying to reenact a movie kiss…but wasn’t quite sure how. It was adorable at best. He asked me if I wanted to go back to his place & like a lady, I declined. I really considered it, but I had left my dog since 6:30 pm & didn’t get home until after 3. Priorities doctor.

So what not? I just don’t know. I decided to invite shortstop over to a BBQ that my friends are having on Sunday…. But he had a family thing to attend to. I’d really like to talk to him & find out where I went wrong… I hope he gets over it.

I’m also hoping to go out again with the doctor this week. I’d like to give him a chance at being awesome. We have great chemistry, I can teach him how to kiss & maybe I can get over the bombshells.

I have been out of the dating game for quite some time now. Let’s just go with 6 years. It just seems like everyone is ok, but has some sort of huge drawback. I don’t really get it all yet. Are these weird comments the kinds of things that you get over, or should send you running for the hills. Also, I am not a prude at all, but some guys just think they can have it all even when they don’t deserve it.

I’d like to end with- it’s completely exhausting dating, let alone dating more than one person at the same time.

BBQ, Shortstop & The Doctor

So last night I went to a BBQ with shortstop at his friend’s house. I was so nervous to meet a bunch of people it was insane. You know me, belle of the ball, everyone’s best friend…yet I was nervous. I got there a little late & didn’t eat a THING there, because everyone already had eaten. Thankfully, last night I ate a piece of string cheese.. I am sure the pounds of salt I have been inhaling the past week have made up for it. But honestly, who gets invited to a BBQ & doesn't offer their guests any food or anything to drink for that matter. Thankfully I brought something to drink or I would have been pretty bummed out.

Shortstop met me out front and introduced me to everyone. I couldn’t name 3 names if I wanted to. He stuck by my side for the first part of the evening. Then the crowd split and I was in a circle of women gabbing about hair, pregnancy, and periods. Brian then exited stage left & went & talked cars with the boys. I had a good time. I like his friends. I really didn’t get to hang out with HIM a lot though. Like I get it, you want to hang out with your friends, at their house, but come on- I really don't know these people.

I was totally ready to leave, but shortstop was at this point, in the garage with the boys looking at the engine of some sweet car. I don’t know. It was funny. But thankfully he came out to check on me, and I told him I was ready to get going. He walked me out to my car and we talked & made out for a bit & then I took off. I told him I wanted to go to his softball game on Friday (he's been inviting me for over a week). Which I think will be fun because I know some of the girls who will be there.

I didn’t get to actually talk to him about my Ex though. I really wanted an opportunity to tell him about that so he could really know me, and so that I can potentially bring him around people and not have someone say something inappropriate. Some of my friends, though they mean well, are not the most impressive around new people. I guess I have time.

I get back into my car after making out, and there’s a text from THE DOCTOR asking me if I was up, and if it was too late to chat! So I texted him back and told him I was up. He called me (OMG BOYS STILL DO TALK ON THE PHONE) and we were on the phone from 11 until after 1 am. He’s pretty awesome. We laughed, and we shared a few stories, and we set plans for Saturday. I am really excited to hang out with him. He seems really cool and down to earth. He runs… uh-ho this girl does NOT RUN. I barley walk fast… But that’s a minor detail. I am sure we are going to laugh all night, because that’s what we’ve been doing since our first conversation.
So. Boys. Boys. Boys. Boys.
What’s a girl to do with so many boys & such little time?

Plus 2 dates in one weekend? I’m exhausted just thinking about it. Is this what “putting yourself out there” really means???

Doctor’s Orders

Today something wonderful happened. I feel kind of horrible about it, but what is a girl to do. I have been knocked off my feet & thrown for a loop.

There I was just minding my own business, being me & I get into a conversation with a man who is as funny & he is flirty. Did I mention he’s a doctor? Did I mention he asked me for my phone number 2x before I gave it to him?

YES MOM A DOCTOR ASKED YOUR BABY GIRL OUT ON A DATE!

Hilarious, funny, witty, charming, DOCTOR.

He said he would give me a call & we could set something up later this week.

I bet you are asking yourself, what about shortstop? Weren’t you just going out with him on 2 dates & saying how great and amazing you feel?

DOCTOR.

How can a girl say no when a doctor asks for her number?